The last two weeks have been quite a challenge. My father went into kidney failure, all of a sudden. As a result, I have been at the hospital every single day since.
You never know when you'll be thrown a curve ball in this life. Just when you think you've figured out the game, here comes life pitching the ball all fancy and stuff! This has been such a learning experience for me. Once again I have been forced to grow in ways that I didn't imagine possible. I have had to summon strength, patience, and courage that I didn't realize I had. There have been times when I wanted to lay down and throw a big, grand "Pity Party" extravaganza! But I couldn't do that. Somewhere along my 37 year journey I became the pillar of strength. I am the person that everyone looks to for encouragement. Where I was once a child who talked too much, I am now a woman who appears to "know it all." (please note that I said "appears")
Although my father is still hospitalized, I do believe he has begun to turn the corner. This experience may have happened to him physically, but it has affected our entire family emotionally. I hope that each one of us will cherish the gift of this seemingly difficult experience and use it to transform the parts of ourselves that needed to be remodeled.
I may be exhausted (completely spent actually), but I am new and improved at the same time. I realize the importance of making and maintaining connections with those who love and care about me. I know without a doubt that change and challenge lurks in the shadows at all times. I feel a sense of gratitude for my body and all its functioning parts. But most of all I realize that I love my father, despite our differences and in spite of his shortcomings.
I will continue to rise to greet adversity as it comes, but I will certainly do a happy dance as it turns to bid me farewell!