I'm still getting my feet wet in this world of freelancing. I have to admit, it's not easy. I have found that my biggest obstacle is myself. I don't think I realized how much I torture myself on a routine basis, until now.
Yesterday, I started to write my first article for Suite 101. I began my quest before 6 a.m. Since I'm still wrapping my brain around SEO and keywords, I made the mistake of trying to write an article on something I knew absolutely nothing about, in hopes to generate a money maker. After wracking my brain for hours, I decided to give it a rest and come back to it later in the day.
When I returned to my self-imposed prison of cash-cow article solitude, I had an epiphany. I am not yet skilled enough to write an article about something that I not only know nothing about it, but that I am completely disinterested in. If I start out this way, it won't be long before I begin to loath writing. If I write about things that I am not interested in, how can I gain the interest of the reader? I do believe this is a lesson worth remembering.
In any event, I wound up writing an article called "Hysterectomies: Consider the Alternatives," a subject that I recently became intimate with, since I had one myself just a bit over 6 months ago. Despite my own personal experience with the subject matter, the article still took quite a bit of time to write (the self-abuse thing again). I was proud of myself for sticking it out. I know this won't be the last time that I struggle writing something, but I also know that the only way to get better at writing and to develop my writing confidence is to keep at it...which is exactly what I intend to do.
Nothing worth having is easy to obtain, I have said this a million times to my daughter and countless others, but this phrase now takes on a different meaning in my life. I know that I will have to work hard to become a freelancer. I will have to endure rejection and long hours. I will have to wrack my brain and blister my fingers. I will have to remember to breathe and forgive myself. More importantly I will have to continue to learn the meaning of perseverance and stand tall in the face of adversity.